2:13 AM

I can't sleep, so I decided to look through my favorite links.

I start clicking away & come across my blog page.

I haven't blogged since March. I'd use the excuse that I have been far too busy, but that wouldn't be the total truth. But I suppose to busy to be that bored-yes.

At any rate, I suppose I will update over the past few months.

As many know, Katie & Ryan were married @ the San Diego temple in March. It is a gorgeous one and it was a beautiful day.

Looking back over the past few months, I really miss seeing them weekly, sitting next to them in sacrament meeting & giving each other the "look", yes we always knew what that meant. Luckily, I still see them occasionally & we catch up. Hopefully now that summer is here I can see them more.

Easter was at the end of march this year-which felt odd, but was it's usual Easter-y self.

Every Easter since I can remember has been spent with the whole extended family at any given park, complete with Easter egg hunt & bunny. It doesn't sound too exciting, but it is actually one of my favorite holidays (for a few reasons) one being-that I do not have to work-and another being that I can spend time with my family. My sisters are 3 of the people that can make me laugh the most & i love it. It is always a fun time-no matter how ghetto the giant family @ the park may get-complete with drunken aunts. I guess its good I don't have a picture of that though-it was pretty ridiculous. But all in all, another "same old same old" Easter-just how it should be.

Moving on to April-I was able to go up to Utah (for my second time ever) & see general conference. Even better-I went with 2 of my favorite girls.

It was extremely relaxing, rejuvenating & i was glad I was able to make the trip. We stayed at their aunt and uncles house-who were fantastic!-and visited some random cheese factory in Beaver on the way home(picture). it also snowed-which was Fantastic.obviously. :)

I spent a lot of time reflecting that weekend.

Every once in a while i think it is good to take a life-inventory. see where you are-where you are going-where you want to be. All in all, I am in a pretty good place. I'm just completing my 3rd year of college, I have a job, a car, a life, I'm doing what I want to be doing (for the most part) and I am heading to where I need to be. Somewhere along the reflecting, or inventory, I realized that just getting to where you should be, is only partially living. what is my whole reason for being here? where are my first priorities? (this led to lots more reflecting)

In the end, somewhere between march & this weekend in April-I realized what I needed to be doing. Somewhere between then and now & did a priority shift-in the right direction-and I have now been preparing for a mission for the last few months. I have never been more sure about a decision in my life. Some days I have no idea what I am doing, other days seem perfect. But one thing I am sure of is that everyday I wake up & I know where I am going. Wherever the Lord sends me. And that gives me all the peace in the world.

There are a lot of things I have to take care of from now until then (which is hopefully by august/September time)

Most of the things are temporal, car, school, work, can all be picked up where about they left off. The most challenging part-getting up the strength to sit my family down & tell them. It seems so silly to be afraid-after all, they are my family. But they mean the world to me and it is always hard to tell the people you love most, something that they might not understand, or accept yet. Either way, the decision has been made, and I know everything will work out in the end :)

More recently, in the month of may, I feel like everything is speeding up. I had the chance to spend some time @ Disneyland with 2 of my favorite people, and it was lots of fun.

things have been crazy lately. these past few months have helped me to learn that no matter what something seems to be-there is no such thing as a sure thing. I guess the outcome of some things depend primarily in the way you handle it. the execution of it all. I'm glad I'm not a terrible executioner, but unfortunately,not the best either. Luckily I have a few awesome people in my life to remind me that I am wonderful-(because I really am :)-just when I seem to be forgetting, To remind me that there is aways someone in a worse situation at any given time, that someone with mission in momentary grasp need not worry about stupid boys @ this time (seriously), and that life i gorgeous. I pass this onto you-life IS gorgeous.

If you live a worthy life, you have no reason to fear. take every beautiful day and make it more extraordinary then the last-and I will do the same :)

That's pretty much the update through the end of may. Thursday is my birthday, and though 21 is hardly anything to be excited about-I guess the high point of turning it will be that I can officially serve a mission :)

As long as my friends are nearby, it will be as good as any =]

(it is now 3:13am sheesh!)

good night

:)